omega.

it's time to tie some loose ends.

actually, the time came, went, came back again, left a post-it, went for lunch, called back to check, left 2 phone messages and 4 emails and is currently lounging at home waiting for the call back.

but anyway, like i said, i got to tie some loose ends.

loose end satu - chris

had a talk with ave (terrence's moll) and i sense she's really been wanting to ask me about this for a long long time, so since we bumped into each other today, she finally asked that question: what did I do to chris?

actually the answer is nothing. which is true. in a bad, shun all contact, avoid all calls kind of way. hey, dun judge me kay? i have my mistakes too u know. (and quite a bit, i must say) anyway i've been feeling guilty about her for the longest time now.

i met chris again recently. like in august. she's got short hair, angel tattoo (or wings) on lower back, that tan that she always had, i think on her way to gym. i wasn't surprised that my colleagues looked stunned and described her as hot. (i can't see her that way) so anyway, i was supposed to call her coz we were both in a rush to get somewhere. i said yeah, i'll call, it's the same number right? yeah i'll call.

of course, i forgot to. (not on purpose)

i emailed her yesterday. got an immediate reply. she's in melbourne. why? i dunno. and her friendster status went back to single. but whatever happens, i will, find a way to say sorry to her and be decent to her.

fine, some part of it is a selfish thing; i wanna get rid of my guilt, but at least it's some kind of closure right?

loose end duo - b.

this is harder. like end of the world harder. am gonna start by deleting her number from my handphone contact. yeah, like right now... so here goes!

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eh... maybe tomorrow?

loose end tiga, hey come to think of it, i got a shitload of loose ends. no matter, i shall clear them one at a time.

wish me luck.

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listening to: feel flows - beach boys. really. am into nostalgia.
reading: lawrence durrell's prospero's cell. it's a scenery descriptive, nothing more, but he has such a flowery way of writing, it's attractively hard to read, yet you wanna keep going over those same lines.